I'm just sitting here fooling myself

Sometimes I'm smart--really smart. Other times, well, other times is what I'd like to talk about right now.

I know how to lose weight--probable know almost everything about it. Weight lose tips could spill off my tongue faster than the sum of 167 + 290. The problem is that I just don't know how to apply them. Drink 1/2 your weight in water in oz. I know that I should drink lots of water, however lately, I just can't seem to get it in. Eat Vegetables--I love them even the weird ones, but for some reason, they don't seem to end up on my plate. I could go on and on and on and...well you get the picture. I need to wake up and smell the tap water and get myself healthy.

I often talk about how I don't want to give up on foods--that I still want to be able to enjoy my Auntie's cake without feeling guilty of the number of points/calories/fat grams that are in it. The problem is that I forget that eating cake from time to time is okay, it's the sweets on a more daily schedule that get a girl in trouble.

I've been working out very regularly--I have for the last 4 weeks been following a training program to gear me up for the up coming 1/2 marathon. In my mind, I'm thinking I'm working out like mad right now so that means I can eat what ever I want. This weekend I gain over 5 pounds? That can not all be muscle! I know that weight can fluctuate from day to day, but really 5 pounds?

There are also times when I just don't eat--not feeling hungry, which is also not good for my body--I tell ya, there is a battle going on inside of me, part of me is trying to build muscle and become lean while another part is trying to hold onto everything because it thinks I'm going to starve to death while yet another part is tripping landmines of sabotage. I'm hoping the stronger army wins.

So instead of just sitting here fooling myself, I'm going to start a food journal again. For the time being, I'm only going to write what I eat and not look at the count it may have--I just want to get an idea of what is or is not going into my mouth. It's time for peace in my land.