A New Year, A New Word, A New Resoultion

Happy 2010

Last year I was introdued to the concept of "A Word" for the new year (here's the link if you have not yet read all about it ) After thinking about what word I would like to use for the new year, I narrowed down my ever growing list to a single word that I think has a powerful meaning in an assorted sort of way. This year my word is Possibities.

Here is the deffintion

pos·si·bil·i·ty (ps-bl-t)
n. pl. pos·si·bil·i·ties
1. The fact or state of being possible.
2. Something that is possible.
3. possibilities Potentiality for favorable or interesting results

I think the word really has possiblity don't you (har har, just couldn't help myself) I remember when growing up the year 2010 seemed like something so very far away and the the world around us would be so very different--we'd all be driving around in floating cars while wearing silver suites and eating our meals via a pill. It all seemed far fetched and to be honest impossible. It also seemed as though the year was so impossibly far in the future that it would never ever get here.

Well here it is and I think that if you would have told me when I was ten that I would be listening to music on small little device that did not have a record or a tape I would not believe you, and the idea of having a home theater was about as fancyful as having a camera right in your phone. So really anything is possible.

As with last year, I am going to apply my word to every aspect of my life--there are many possiblities that can happen were my health is concerned. I have signed up for my very first half-marathon (actually twice, oops) and I know that the possiblities that will come with getting ready for that and the all the possible feeling I will have after crossing the finish line will be endless I am sure.

I think of all the possiblities that will be happening with my children and loving husband. I could write a book about all that could happen.

The sky is not the limit, for I would like to go above and beyond all that I can and cannot see. All the beautiful possiblities that lay ahead are just waiting for me to achieve.

Now that I have my word out there for the world to see, I will let you all in on the secret of what my resoultion is this year. This year I am going to become a goddess. That is my goal and I resolve to hold myself to it.

While talking to the hubs about this desire, I found that not everyone thinks of goddesses in the same terms. He thought I wanted to be whorshiped by everyone--and well who doesn't enjoy that, but that is not at all what I mean, so I will explain.

I want to become better than I am today. I want to have my house in order, my health a priority, be good at the things that I do, and be calm and patient when things do not work as I had planned. I want to love more freely (not like that, geesh) what I mean by that is I want the people that mean the world to me to know it and feel it, not just assume or think it may be possible that they are special to me. I want to find the beauty that I often time have a hard time seeing in myself. I want to embody what my soul has been for years. I think there is a lot of possiblities to this resoultion, don't you?

Year in review

So 2009 is a thing of the past and it was my intention to do a year in review before the end of the year and start fresh with a new post on the very first day of the year. Five days in and here I am posting my review. The simple fact is that it is very very very cold where we keep our computer and my little fingers can only type for so long before falling off--so I will attempt to make this review rather short in hopes to save my limbs.

I went back are read my New Years blog from last here (here's the link incase you would like to read it yourself )

So in reading what I wrote, I will say that I did fairly well last year--some improvements could be made so I think I will continue to plug away at my old goals as well as attempt a new set of goals (you'll have to read about that later).

My resulution to not lose weight, but instead gain health may have just been sussessful--for over the corse of the year, I have lost about 13 pounds. And I will say that I am very much pleased with that. I will continue to not try to lose, but remain in a gaining state of mind (you have to do what works right?

I think I really need to work on celebrating the little things in life some more.

So here I go a wassailing again some more this year.

Happy Holidays

Today is a day that we, as a family, just like most families, have been planning and preping for well since last year. We normally make a short trip to my husbands families to feast and gorge and then have dessert (pie anyone?). This year our plans changed, then changed again, changed back and maybe had another twist in the plot.

The weather has kept us home--and as much as I love spending time with my in-laws and family friends, it is really nice to just stay home and be still for a change (okay really not still, but unable to leave the house). I have already accomplished some goals for the weekend and plan on spending some time reading Little Women while cuddled up under a blanket.

The kids have been enjoying their humble load of gifts and finding other gifts from days gone by to use as well.

Martin is fully enjoying his lego sets and the lego brick builder magazine he reseaved (a magazine that will come every 2 months with legos, guess that will keep him busy all year long) Maybe someday he will join my brother in building or maybe enginering or something that pays him well so he can put us in a good home someday.

Poppy has been bouncing back and forth from one thing to another, flitting as only she does best. She was gifted a new bedding set which means she will be taking on a "new" big girl bed. She is elated. It's like a whole new room for her and she keeps checking it out. She keeps "writing" in her diary too, I'm sure she is noting details about how wonderful this Christmas is turning out to be. Or maybe she has been inspired by her all time favorite musical Mama Mia and is just writing dot dot dot. (only hoping she is not implying the same meaning to dot dot dot)

Adam is doing this and that and I believe it is his Christmas wish to get some wii time in. I'm sure he will be succesful.

I will end this little holiday tribute with a wish for you, who is reading this, may the coming year bring unexpeceted moments that you will charish for always.

Merry Christmas to you.

Purging

No--I'm not talking about me having bulimia. I'm talking about the fact that I am actually getting rid of the junk that has been overtaking our home. I am a collector and a saver and maybe a border line hoarder...but I gave myself permission to just throw it away and so far, it's been working out really great.

I am tossing out all those little things that I have no idea what they are for that I had saved in hopes that someday someone would know and then I could come to the rescue with a triumphant *Ta-DA* (insert magical sounding music here) here is the item of which you speak. I am hoping that this cleaning it out streak last a while and that I don't start to turn the corner and become all sentimental over things and go back to my stashing away ways.

I think this disorder must be in my blood--my fathers mother is a pack rat and I hate to admit it, but I believe I am as well. I have joined a program for people like myself and with the guidance of people who know, I am hoping I can recover and begin to live the full life I wish to have--instead of the life full of crap.

I have

New Goal

My new goal is to weigh less at the end of this year than I did at the beginning. So far I'm doing okay, but have to make it through the holidays.

Am I worth it?

Yes I am!

Why do I have such a hard time remembering that I am

Brush with Death

I believe I almost met my maker this morning. I had extream chest pains and difficulty breathing. I was light headed and my legs we completely unstable. I think I may have blacked out for a moment--I have know idea of how I got home. See riding a bike with a trolly toting 60+ pounds is not good for your health--but very good for the imagination I guess.

Me and my big ideas--today Marty's school was participating in Walk to School day--so I got the idea that riding bike would be faster. Again, Me and My Big Ideas. First thing I had to pull the bike and trolley out of the garage. Fill all the tires with air (some of them the job required me to repeat my actions). The get the two children in the cart & buckled in--bike helments on. Then ride the bike and all the child weight and mine the .08 miles to the school. Not bad. But coming home, the down hill becomes an up hill and that was hell. I thought I was in shape. That was a slap in the face and a tack in my inflated ego. Part of me wants to try it again so I can get stronger and prove to myself that I am cable--but oh, man I am pretty sure there is a stronger part of my brain that takes on a certain ethnic tone and says "I don't think so". I really hope that is the stronger than my big ideas.

Sometimes I think I need to hire that cricket from the movie and it will be his job to tell me NO. If we would have just walked to school, I would feel a bit tired, but good. This feeling is not good. Okay, so I didn't really almost die--I do have a tendency to be a little dramatic--just a little--but I don't think this is the kind of training I want to put myself through. This type of push may work for some people, but I know myself and it will send me running in the other direction. Maybe I should try just biking on my own again. I need a nap.